Isolation

It seems I've found my first trigger: being alone and/or isolated.

This really sucks since I'm pretty much a loner-type person and much enjoy my own company to others.

It's my late day at work, so I've been spending the morning resting and relaxing - reading, watching TV, cuddling with my furry babies - and I can't stop thinking about getting up and going to the refrigerator and having a bite of something.

I ate breakfast about 2 hours ago, and I'm not really hungry, but there's this empty gnawing sensation in my gut and I feel anxious and antsy and unsettled. I keep getting up to walk into the kitchen, sometimes going so far as opening the refrigerator door, but then I close it and come sit back down and that gnawing feeling starts all over again.

Right now, I almost want to scream or cry or flail about, because I'm full of something and I don't know how to let it out.